This has been a truly unproductive week on a personal front. I have only managed to make one post since last weekend and I’ve only completed a couple of workouts.
Bugger – that’s a pretty epic fail on all levels. There’s been combination of factors (isn’t there always) that stops you achieving what you set out to do.
A film that I really wanted to see, an unexpectedly late night at work, a friend’s birthday drinks, a bout of insomnia, and a vomit-inducing virus are this week’s excuses all rolled into one. I got my cardio levels up enough on Friday morning whilst being chased by a bee – but otherwise, it’s been a lazy week all round.
So I’m half way through this weekend with a grand master plan about working off the birthday cake and trying to make everything I want to achieve, fit into my life. Will I succeed, who knows, but I’m going to have a damn good try. Now, off to the treadmill for a caffeine-charged workout.
I’ll admit it, I don’t always have a fully formed life plan. I’m just not that ambitious. I’m driven, which is different, but most people feel more comfortable having a bit of a life plan mapped out, so that they can check how they’re getting on in life. I often like not knowing, and whilst I’ve planted seeds, have moved on before they get a chance to spread their roots.
I love my job, I’ve pretty much loved most of the jobs I’ve done in life, but I’ve never once awoken thinking, “Yes, that’s the job I want to do for the rest of my life”. My motto is to do the best job I can – that’s what I do. That’s all I’ve ever wanted – to be the best that I can be.
It’s the honest answer, but it confuses people. They need to believe that I had a game plan all along, that I categorically went through each career choice with a focus on gaining each new skill to make a better life for myself. I didn’t. I’ve changed jobs when I’ve needed a change, I’ve moved into new roles when I’ve needed new challenges and along the way, I’ve found that this approach works for me. I adapt to new situations and want to try new things, it’s as simple as that.
This is a core aspect of my personality – I want to try new things – although, I rarely stick at one thing long term. At this very moment, I’m supposed to be doing a 16 mile exercise extravaganza, instead I’m choosing to write this blog.
I will start that 16 mile extravaganza within the next few minutes because I do have a long term goal in mind, to be bikini-fit in my 40’s, but a couple of decades worth of decadence is harder to get rid of than it was to put on.
Anyway, it’s ok not to have a plan, and it’s ok to change your mind as you go through life. Just stay true to yourself, be kind to others and believe that you can be best you can be. You just have to get off your backside and do it.